Have you ever taken a bite out of wax fruit? Seen a 69 GTO, 4 speed, tach on the hood--- primo condition but the engine is missing? Have you ever seen the *most* beautiful person but once you heard the trash that came out of their mouth, they became the ugliest, nastiest thing you have ever seen???
Our entire experience here is overly geared toward sight, the tangible, more on having, greed, control, power, aesthetic, satisfaction of the flesh! I know part of the point in being here is the experience, the journey from one point to another, whatever they may tentatively be BUT what if the real journey is to healthfully incorporate the sensation of holding it in your hand, while the majority of the experience is within the heart, feeling our way through it.
This experience and the way we are solicited to prioritize how we view life, is massively hijacked. The way our physical senses are preyed upon is mind blowing! It's shameful really but companies take advantage of this and so have we as humans. --Well, if I dress this way and act that way, I'll be able to gain the attention of the opposite sex and solicit a favored response thus getting what I want. Bingo!
We've got a couple options. Keep playing the game and also getting played or pull the plug as far as we are aware we are plugged in and live in a very different way.
Beginning with living from a place of sense, but not physical sense, a heart sense more or less. This will move you in a direction that will bring about what is needed for you to experinece whatever it is you wanted to experience here. We don't always know what it is. It isn't always pretty or comfortable and it doesn't always sound like the thing we dreamed about doing when we were little children.
If 20 years ago you would have told me that I would be writing about healing from trauma and building a healthy life for yourself, I would have laughed. 20 years ago, I drank and in my opinion, had absolutely nothing wrong with me, it was everyone else that was f*cked up. I was selfish and just wanted to have a good time while I'm here and figured I'd just sleep when I die. And people that had kids, made zero sense to me. Their entire lives revolved around these little people and how the hell can you have no time to yourself!?!? Oh we could talk about selfish Sara for a while but you get my point. The things that I care about now and the things that drive me are not at all what I wanted then. Label brand clothes. Leave me alone. Where's the party. Did you hear that new band. That guy is hot! Uh yeah.
I'm not here to judge. But even after I did an about face and entered into a conventional religious life, that felt shallow and empty and fell apart as well. After the last straw some years ago, I cried out to whatever this Creator is and said; "I just want to know the truth... even if it hurts."
And so it slid into the ocean. I realized this was a pattern, things looked good, even functioned, on the surface most of the time. Was it satisfying? Was it meaningful? Was it what I wanted? Was my heart fulfilled? Was it--- Authentic? NO. No it wasn't. And honestly, I think that's why we are here.
In my opinion, I think that's the whole reason we're here. To live authentically. No one is right and no one is wrong, we're just here to experience if all from a space of authenticity but where does authenticity live? In the heart, isn't it?
You've been moved by something before, right? A sudden pull on your senses to cry or a burst of joy comes rippling outward in an explosive hurrah! It came from a deep, inner space. A space no one can see but can only be felt. This is where authenticity resides, this is where is moves and makes its decisions from. This is where no one has influence over us. If we can get in touch with this, we will always be dancing with life, just as our soul, our spirit had intended.
We need only; listen. xx
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